August 12, 2012

Self Portrait Therapy

A series of self portraits that will never be finished. 

My self-harm habits have been with me my entire life.
I get better and I get worse at the same time, all of the time. And that is essentially what self-harm is--it makes you better and worse. These photos are my effort to reconcile the the self hate and the self love, and document a healing process that ebbs and flows with no consistency or predictability, a process that will never end because it is a part of who I am.

This is my "self portrait therapy," if you will. 

















My mantra is often: I'm ok, you're ok, it will all be ok, etc.



PS- I stole the term "self portrait therapy" from Alexis Mire.

7 comments:

  1. Anonymous8/13/2012

    incredibly awesome artistic photos .. like always :)

    i know life may be difficult for you sometimes but please don't harm yourself .. it really makes me sad ..
    i may try to come to the us to give you a big hug whenever you're at a low point again .. but please stop hurting yourself

    ps: i am often deeply depressed too but i try not to harm myself. please don't harm yourself either because it really makes everything worse ..
    btw. i really appreciate your courage to share those stories. i really do ..
    (m, 19, europe)

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  2. Anonymous8/14/2012

    “You think you’re the only one who feels small. You think you’re the only one who isn’t sure what tomorrow might bring. You think you’re the only one who’s scared the world might eat them.

    We suffer together and hold each other tight because when we touch each other, we know.

    You are never alone. Ever.”

    http://www.iwrotethisforyou.me/2007/08/crowd.html

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  3. Anonymous8/26/2012

    Maybe you feel like you've gone too far, gotten too deep, to have things return to "normal" -- or that you're not even sure you want things to go back to the way they were, that your photos are better when you're sicker. But it's not true. And I know you can't want this for yourself. You don't have to heal yourself, you have help and you're not alone. God is right by your side. These photos aren't raw or shocking for him. He was there the whole time. He created you with such an incredible gift of seeing the beauty in everyone and everything. He will help you see that same beauty in yourself, if you just ask.

    I just wanted you to know that you are LOVED and you're not ever alone, even when maybe you'd like to be. I won't stand to let you hurt someone I love and God won't allow you to hurt one of his most talented, dazzling and skilled creations.

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  4. Anonymous10/04/2012

    everything will be ok in the end. if it's not ok, it's not the end.

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  5. Anonymous10/14/2012

    these made me cry because they're a place i thought i'd never be again. this is a place i can't ever really escape because it's a part of me. not the whole part anymore but it's a part of me. it always will be.

    i get it. i saw it in you. i don't know if you saw it in me. you already know you're not alone. that probably won't make you feel any less like you are. that's depressing but so is life sometimes. im here if you ever need me.

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  6. I admire the honesty and bravery captured in your self-portrait therapy. I honestly hope it helps you face your demons and in your healing process.

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  7. Beautiful photographs of an ugly thing. I love the honesty. Hope this therapy helps, you are beautiful.

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